nitrous falling
like liquid from the back of the hand
wrapped in cellophane
neural seize
never stop
take the blue pill
it eases the delusions
& the thin black line inside winds it's way on
slips in
impaled on the needle
this is wrong
oh this is madness
the tapping of the vein
the methlab logic
of a final rave in vegas
reacting to the baying crowd
all tomorrow’s parties come again
[bite down]
she picks at the stitches
[bite down]
she sets the scene for the fall
[bite down]
& i bear witness
to prick at the answer
[bite down on deliverance]

come & find me...
come & find me.

call sister lightning
to diarise the breakdown
this mote of understanding
the evidence is clear
balanced on the knife-edge
& beaten by the meaning
these pattern systems failing
her final words ringing in my ears:
"you were always on my mind"
"you were something else that shined"
"you were ever underneath this lie"
"you never set me free"

[decipher]
tell me what you need it to mean
[decipher]
looking to the day it fell apart
[decipher]
reconcile the silence in between
[decipher]
help me decipher your heart
[this was never justified]
[crack the code expose this lie]
[decipher]
tell me what you need it to mean
[decipher]
help me decipher your heart.

come & find me...
come & find me.

[decipher]
tell me what you need it to mean
[decipher]
looking to the day it fell apart
[decipher]
reconcile the silence in between
[decipher]
help me decipher your heart
[stay the course for the answer]
[stand firm & never admit defeat]
[decipher]
tell me what you need it to mean
[decipher]
help me decipher your heart.